Tuesday, May 05, 2009

The End of an Era

It happened. Sooner than I thought, but easier too.

Last night I got Jesse's jammies on and Tim was tucking in the other boys. I was ready to head downstairs with Jesse to nurse him when he reached and grunted for his crib. He was ready for bed. No nursing. No fuss. I think we're done.

I had decided since he's my last little nursling that I'd follow his lead for when we stopped, and I knew it wouldn't be much longer since we were down to just nighttime, but I guess I wasn't quite ready. Not just yet.

Since I got pregnant with Eli in August of 2001 I have been either pregnant or nursing almost constantly. There was a two week break between weaning Eli and getting pregnant with Noah, between Noah and Simon there was overlap so no break, and then after Simon was weaned I had a three month break before I was pregnant with Jesse, but over the course of that span of time (7 years and 8 months) that's not much of a break.

Now I'll need to adjust so I don't consume as many calories-no milk to produce. I guess my body is now my own?

This last baby thing is bittersweet.


Natalie said...

That must be hard. Unfortunately my supply could not keep up with Daniel's demand so I could not breastfeed him. I tried for quite a while but he was just not getting enough to eat.

Janelle said...

That's too bad! Especially if you wanted to. But you did for a while, and hopefully you have fond memories of it!

McBorn said...

I can image the bittersweetness. You can be proud of yourself for all that you have done for your boys, supplying their nourishment from conception until they were ready to eat independently. What a sweet gift you have given each of them.
I hope I can do the same for my child(ren).

Janelle said...

You are well on your way! It is such a special connection to a baby.

Just last night Noah was asking why Jesse likes me best-and nursing is part of it. It's still engrained in him that he needs me :)

Deanna said...

I'm not looking forward to that day for me. You're a great mama and those boys are blessed to have you.

Anonymous said...

Nursing your sons started them out the way GOD intended. As they grow and mature You will see what a strong foundation You have established. Nothing else bonds mother and child like nursing! You
are the Best!